“but it only hurts me”

I remember telling my friend, when I started my step four in my recovery work, that some things weren’t important because they only hurt me. My friend called bullshit on that and she also said that I am of value and when I hurt myself I’ve still hurt someone. Often, the things that I thought

resurrection and light

I didn’t know how to set altars for Easter, and I didn’t have the items I needed in order to put anything together, or so I thought. I set two altars that I love, and putting all the elements together is prayer. When I started putting things together, especially as I was making a wreath

just call me judas

A few days ago, a friend and I were discussing that fact that although all of the rosary mysteries are meaningful and worthy of much meditation, the most profound for us are the Sorrowful Mysteries. I think perhaps that just happens when one’s relationship not just with God but with the world has been rocky

characters of holy week

As we go straight from hosanna in the highest, to crucify him in a very short amount of time, let’s consider some of the characters that played a part in the passion story. I identify with several of the key players in the narrative of the last days of the life of Jesus. These people

visual act of contrition

Today I spent a few hours trying something new. I was wanting to create with my hands an act of contrition that would be displayed on my altar. I’ve been thinking a lot of Judas recently as his actions coincide with something I am currently working through. A few weeks ago, I had picked up

living liturgically (season one, episode twelve, last sunday after the epiphany)

A friend of mine told me that epiphany is a season of revelation, and that seems to be true for me. There’s been a lot of revelation for me, so much that I’m not quite sure what to do with it, except give it to Jesus which I’m going to be honest and say is

marian consecration prayer

Tomorrow on the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, I will consecrate myself to Mary and in so doing, ultimately to Jesus, which is the point. I have written my own consecration prayer, but I will also use others as well. For those of you familiar with the baptismal renunciations and promises in the Book

living liturgically (season one, episode eleven, ordinary time 2022)

I wasn’t sure exactly what to write this week (and yes, I know I’m a day late, I was so exhausted yesterday I was unable to do any writing), because there was so much going on, and yet so much was the same. I struggled with an extra helping of depression the last few days

living liturgically (season one, episode ten, ordinary time 2022)

So far, ordinary time has not been ordinary at all, but that’s usually true in my life anyway. My spirituality is anything but ordinary, and I have this uncanny ability to do absolutely everything the wrong way, and yet it seems that for me and my relationship with Jesus, the order of things is the correct order for me.

living liturgically (season one, episode eight, epiphany 2022)

I saw a meme on Facebook the other day that, in speaking of the wise men, said “once we meet Jesus, we all go home by another way.” It was quite profound to me then as it is now. Epiphany reminds me of the concept of seeking and finding. I grew up being told about