“but it only hurts me”

I remember telling my friend, when I started my step four in my recovery work, that some things weren’t important because they only hurt me. My friend called bullshit on that and she also said that I am of value and when I hurt myself I’ve still hurt someone. Often, the things that I thought

just call me judas

A few days ago, a friend and I were discussing that fact that although all of the rosary mysteries are meaningful and worthy of much meditation, the most profound for us are the Sorrowful Mysteries. I think perhaps that just happens when one’s relationship not just with God but with the world has been rocky

living liturgically (season one, episode twelve, last sunday after the epiphany)

A friend of mine told me that epiphany is a season of revelation, and that seems to be true for me. There’s been a lot of revelation for me, so much that I’m not quite sure what to do with it, except give it to Jesus which I’m going to be honest and say is

marian consecration prayer

Tomorrow on the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, I will consecrate myself to Mary and in so doing, ultimately to Jesus, which is the point. I have written my own consecration prayer, but I will also use others as well. For those of you familiar with the baptismal renunciations and promises in the Book

living liturgically (season one, episode ten, ordinary time 2022)

So far, ordinary time has not been ordinary at all, but that’s usually true in my life anyway. My spirituality is anything but ordinary, and I have this uncanny ability to do absolutely everything the wrong way, and yet it seems that for me and my relationship with Jesus, the order of things is the correct order for me.

sackcloth and ashes

This is an offering to Mary by one of my personalities, Sorrow. Many of us are preparing for Marian consecration for the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, and so we are reading, praying, and learning. Mary has been an excellent mother to us and most of us are glad to have her. So, here

living liturgically (season one, episode seven, epiphany 2022)

The gold was to recognize that the toddler was a king, the frankincense to recognize his deity, and myrrh symbolizing his death. That’s why they didn’t bring Pampers, they were focused on the future.

morning offering

The Book of Common Prayer has a liturgy for morning prayer which I like, but this is a morning offering I have put together, which is much shorter (which isn’t the point here), and it’s about committing myself to God each day. I’m sharing it on the first day of the year in case a

dear mary

Our Lady of Guadalupe,
thank-you for the roses,
the ones you gave to Juan Diego,
and the ones you gave to me,
the waterlily also.

living liturgically (season one, episode four, advent 2021)

What I came to realize, right before Christmas, is that instead of focusing on all the terrible things of the past, I can enter Christmas knowing that Jesus has delivered me from those things…