special devotions – chaplet of st michael

I’m completely and utterly allergic to those pretty looking books with flowers or a scenic picture or something trendy on the cover that contain devotional readings. I’ve been allergic to devotionals for quite some years now, and the allergy gets worse with time, and so I must have minimal exposure in order to survive my

some of my conversations with the saints #1

St. John the Baptist: “John the Baptist, I relate to you some, since you were crazy and offbeat and misunderstood and lonely just like me, but bro, you couldn’t have been known as John the something else? Baptist has way too many connotations for me.” St. Peter the Apostle: “Peter, I so get you. I

the woman caught in adultery

One day, while Jesus was on earth, a bunch of people brought a woman they considered to be scum, to Jesus, and dumped her at his feet. They wanted him to condemn her, and she was an easy target considering she had done something that society saw as terrible. These people were not interested in

the addict’s rosary

There is no addict’s rosary, but praying the sorrowful mysteries often reminds me of powerlessness. One of the first things an addict in recovery does is admit powerlessness. I don’t like it any more now than I did when I first started recovery, but it’s necessary all the same. Without admitting powerlessness, I can’t get

invitation from jesus

I run the prayer rope through my thumb and index finger on my right hand, which now has a blister on it from the many hundreds of knots I’ve slid through in the hour I’ve been praying. Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner. I feel guilty as sin about

a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.”

Me: Jesus, I’ve fucked up again as far as being angry about shit I can’t control and in so doing, gotten to where I don’t feel as close to you, and to where I’m tempted to relapse. The thing is, I know I need to repent and as far as confessing, that’s what I’m doing

my prayer practice

I have wanted to share what some of my prayer practice looks like just to throw some ideas out there for anyone who is interested. I recommend reading Prayer Spa: Ancient Treatments for the Modern Soul as a helpful resource for anyone wanting further ideas on prayer practices. It’s a very short resource with some

prayer bead prayers for dealing with big feelings

Often I have huge feelings that I don’t know how to process appropriately, and I wrote these prayers for use on Anglican prayer beads. One thing about having multiple personalities is that someone always has some big feelings to process, and these are prayers whoever is present at the time can pray. Even the repetition

main prayer altar

I’ve been collecting things for a long time to work into my main area where I pray if I’m at home and I’m alone. I pray in the living room with the kids, this is when it’s just me and God. I’ve had many good moments here, and I’ve worked hard to get it how

have mercy on me for i am in need

This is another of the prayers that I have written during my recovery, when I realized that I am in need of sobriety but cannot achieve it because I sure as hell spent a good portion of my life trying. I’ve been an addict since I was a child, after all, and I had gotten