ash wednesday brought me face to face with jesus (eventually)

I’d never known was liturgy was, and I figured I sure as hell didn’t want it, until one day in my very early 30’s, I actually saw people with ash on their forehead and, instead of laughing and mocking like I did every other year, I started to wonder what it was, why it was

living liturgically (season one, episode twelve, last sunday after the epiphany)

A friend of mine told me that epiphany is a season of revelation, and that seems to be true for me. There’s been a lot of revelation for me, so much that I’m not quite sure what to do with it, except give it to Jesus which I’m going to be honest and say is

living liturgically (season one, episode eleven, ordinary time 2022)

I wasn’t sure exactly what to write this week (and yes, I know I’m a day late, I was so exhausted yesterday I was unable to do any writing), because there was so much going on, and yet so much was the same. I struggled with an extra helping of depression the last few days

living liturgically (season one, episode ten, ordinary time 2022)

So far, ordinary time has not been ordinary at all, but that’s usually true in my life anyway. My spirituality is anything but ordinary, and I have this uncanny ability to do absolutely everything the wrong way, and yet it seems that for me and my relationship with Jesus, the order of things is the correct order for me.

living liturgically (season one, episode nine, epiphany 2022)

Sometimes it feels like I found Jesus almost by accident. If I had been one of the magi who followed the star to find Jesus, I think I would have gotten lost. I’m pretty good at getting lost in most places, and I’m also an expert in doing things the wrong way, the long way,

living liturgically (season one, episode eight, epiphany 2022)

I saw a meme on Facebook the other day that, in speaking of the wise men, said “once we meet Jesus, we all go home by another way.” It was quite profound to me then as it is now. Epiphany reminds me of the concept of seeking and finding. I grew up being told about

living liturgically (season one, episode seven, epiphany 2022)

The gold was to recognize that the toddler was a king, the frankincense to recognize his deity, and myrrh symbolizing his death. That’s why they didn’t bring Pampers, they were focused on the future.

living liturgically (season one, episode six, christmas 2021)

I know what it’s like to get sucked into something deep and evil, and to not be able to get myself out. This is why Jesus came! To deliver Israel from their sins, to deliver me from mine, to deliver the world from theirs.

living liturgically (season one, episode five, christmas 2021)

Mary is still bleeding out from childbirth, her stomach still cramping, stretch marks run along her skin. She picks up Jesus in a daze and pops out a breast, and Jesus latches on to eat. Mary winces as her crackled nipple aches as the child suckles.

living liturgically (season one, episode four, advent 2021)

What I came to realize, right before Christmas, is that instead of focusing on all the terrible things of the past, I can enter Christmas knowing that Jesus has delivered me from those things…