visual act of contrition

Today I spent a few hours trying something new. I was wanting to create with my hands an act of contrition that would be displayed on my altar. I’ve been thinking a lot of Judas recently as his actions coincide with something I am currently working through. A few weeks ago, I had picked up

ash wednesday brought me face to face with jesus (eventually)

I’d never known was liturgy was, and I figured I sure as hell didn’t want it, until one day in my very early 30’s, I actually saw people with ash on their forehead and, instead of laughing and mocking like I did every other year, I started to wonder what it was, why it was

marian consecration prayer

Tomorrow on the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, I will consecrate myself to Mary and in so doing, ultimately to Jesus, which is the point. I have written my own consecration prayer, but I will also use others as well. For those of you familiar with the baptismal renunciations and promises in the Book

living liturgically (season one, episode ten, ordinary time 2022)

So far, ordinary time has not been ordinary at all, but that’s usually true in my life anyway. My spirituality is anything but ordinary, and I have this uncanny ability to do absolutely everything the wrong way, and yet it seems that for me and my relationship with Jesus, the order of things is the correct order for me.

multiple spirituality

So, when MaryClare dies and goes to heaven or wherever it is that she’s going to be with God, do we all get to go with her, or is just her as the host that owns the body who gets to go? Sasha asked a friend of ours. If someone is going to ask a

why jesus?

I once went a place that I should not have been (well, I’ve been many places I should not have been, but this is just about this one), I went to the house of a man who had a small Pagan store in his home. I was there to purchase crystals, spells, runes and shit

even in church we (attempt to) hide

When mental illness goes to church, what does that look like? Today’s sermon was about vulnerability, so this is us being vulnerable. My priest knows she is pastoring multiple personalities, but not everyone else knows we exist. At home before the service: Surely there is something that we can wear, Rose says as she dumps

grieving eucharist, loving jesus

Disclaimer: Feelings are feelings, it doesn’t mean that they are reality, and I want to say that up front as I talk about deep grief, I experienced throughout the height of the COVID-19 pandemic and the feeling that I had been abandoned by the Church. It’s a story of the deep grief and the loss