ash wednesday brought me face to face with jesus (eventually)

I’d never known was liturgy was, and I figured I sure as hell didn’t want it, until one day in my very early 30’s, I actually saw people with ash on their forehead and, instead of laughing and mocking like I did every other year, I started to wonder what it was, why it was

marian consecration prayer

Tomorrow on the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, I will consecrate myself to Mary and in so doing, ultimately to Jesus, which is the point. I have written my own consecration prayer, but I will also use others as well. For those of you familiar with the baptismal renunciations and promises in the Book

living liturgically (season one, episode ten, ordinary time 2022)

So far, ordinary time has not been ordinary at all, but that’s usually true in my life anyway. My spirituality is anything but ordinary, and I have this uncanny ability to do absolutely everything the wrong way, and yet it seems that for me and my relationship with Jesus, the order of things is the correct order for me.

living liturgically (season one, episode eight, epiphany 2022)

I saw a meme on Facebook the other day that, in speaking of the wise men, said “once we meet Jesus, we all go home by another way.” It was quite profound to me then as it is now. Epiphany reminds me of the concept of seeking and finding. I grew up being told about

living liturgically (season one, episode four, advent 2021)

What I came to realize, right before Christmas, is that instead of focusing on all the terrible things of the past, I can enter Christmas knowing that Jesus has delivered me from those things…

living liturgically (season one, episode three, advent 2021)

One day, as I was wandering around in a Goodwill store, I found a photograph of a stained glass window of the annunciation. I purchased it and hung it above one of my prayer altars. I’m thankful that Advent highlights the stories of some of the women in the Bible. This year, my church used

why jesus?

I once went a place that I should not have been (well, I’ve been many places I should not have been, but this is just about this one), I went to the house of a man who had a small Pagan store in his home. I was there to purchase crystals, spells, runes and shit

even in church we (attempt to) hide

When mental illness goes to church, what does that look like? Today’s sermon was about vulnerability, so this is us being vulnerable. My priest knows she is pastoring multiple personalities, but not everyone else knows we exist. At home before the service: Surely there is something that we can wear, Rose says as she dumps

grieving eucharist, loving jesus

Disclaimer: Feelings are feelings, it doesn’t mean that they are reality, and I want to say that up front as I talk about deep grief, I experienced throughout the height of the COVID-19 pandemic and the feeling that I had been abandoned by the Church. It’s a story of the deep grief and the loss

baptismal promises and covenant – following jesus

Spiritual practice looks different for everyone as well all come to Jesus in different ways, and my relationship with Jesus has been complex. Part of my spiritual practice is to renew my baptismal vows regularly, a minimum of once a week, to keep them on my mind. They are a great guide for Christian life,